Tuesday, May 17, 2005
the lonely tues morning
i used to look forward to tues cos we get to spend time tog. look at how much time we do spend tog, i really appreciate tues. the small incident which happened yday was enuf for me to read u n tt was one reason y i popped tt qns over dinner. the emptiness in my heart yday on tt short journey still stayed on till now. it's oni a matter of time tt such things should happen. i was juz hoping tt it wouldnt come so soon aft talking abt it for many times. the short cold period of tt few hrs over the past mths already hurt me. u cant see the bleeding in my heart, but it's there. every time tt wound heals, it opens again, each time the stab is deeper. you haf enuf to worry tt's y i nv tell u. or rather how much time haf u spend w me? u seldom bear ur heart out too unless i ask. mayb they're in a better position to tell u abt ur faults, definitely not me. i didnt know u for as long as u know them. follow ur heart cos i saw it coming fr ur initial action. my fears were confirmed or at least i feel so. dun worry abt me for i wont cry in front of u anymore. at least last nite i managed to hold it till i reached the beach. i will turn my back n take my leave. i believe i know when tt should b. n when i leave, no matter how my heart sinks, i will nv look back...cos i know i shouldnt b looking back. no pt looking back when u've chosen tt path. i'm brave for i know i haf to. at least, i know my hp wont b ringing in the morning n hearing ur voice again.
HUMULU
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
7:58 am
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